The past couple of weeks, I’ve given up on the House Wife Project. I haven’t been blogging, because if I’m not doing the project, what do I have to write about? I need to redefine the house wife role as it applies to me.
Sean has agreed to do the dishes. He also cleaned the entire house while I was sleeping on Sunday. It was so awesome to wake up to a spotless house. I do not excel in super cleaning. I like to do small cleaning projects like, sweeping and Swiffering. I also don’t mind doing the laundry. My favorite thing to do is to decorate. That’s why I cried when my mom shipped me a bunch of items that are craft-able. She even sent me a glue gun! I love that woman.
It’s been difficult to be without my craft supplies. They currently reside in a Grand Rapids storage unit. I left most of my possessions in MI on the off chance that Sean and I didn’t work out. I’ve moved for a guy before. That time I brought everything I owned. Six months after I got there, I had to sell almost everything. I loved my things. I had a fantastic red couch, copious amounts of Ikea furniture and decorations, and the best bed I’ve ever slept on. I no longer own any of those things. Driving back to the mainland from Alaska with a trailer in February is not a safe journey. Not only that, but it was necessary to get the eff out as quickly as possible from that living situation.
I learned my lesson from the Alaskan experience. This time I only shipped out clothing, a few baskets, blankets, my stereo, and some other odds and ends I felt I would need. While craft items are not something I need, I love all things that are pretty and sparkle. So, being without the gorgeous array of all things shiny, I’m not quite feeling myself. So, how am I supposed to be improving when I’m not feeling complete? I’ve done a lot of personal growth in the last two years with anti-depressants, counseling, and Xanax. Now I’m not feeling “whole” because I’m not creating pretties.
Without my pretties, I have nothing to motivate me. I used to do a thorough cleaning whenever I wanted to do a project. To create beauty, I need a clean space, so that I can “see” what I’m going to create without visual distractions.
Excellent… I’ve decided that this week I will craft. With the things Mom sent me, I’ve got plenty of supplies. Yay! I’ve got a project for the week.
Also, my Nutrisystem shipment arrived… so I’m starting today. I’ve already eaten breakfast, and it was yummy. I can do this. Mainly, because I can’t stand being chunky anymore. I love having curves, but I shouldn’t have an innertube around my stomach. That’s one curve too many. I lie, it’s two curves too many. Yep. Two inner tubes. Pretty picture, right? Nope. That’s why I’ve got Nutrisystem. Wish me luck. No no no. Wish me will power.